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A little prayer.

2012-01-27T22:00:00.003+08:00

Last I checked, I'm 2kg heavier.
Breathless, Bloated and hugeee
I can't even fit into the jeans I bought last year.
Not that I'm complaining.

Alhamdulilah.

We've gotten our own house that will be ready in 2014.Insyallah

Bachelor graduation will be in 2013 which means school will end in October 2012.

Off the top of my head

2011-10-21T16:36:00.002+08:00

My dearest cousin gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, weighing 3.5kg.
My Goodness! Praise ALLAH SWT for this magical and blessful moment.
Syauraa Nabiela, welcome to the world, my dear... Someday, auntie and uncle will give you a friend to play with. Insyallah.

I'm currently mugging for my paper this Sunday, took a break to snoop around other blogs and updating my blog.

So here's an update. Something nice happened recently and I can't share it yet. Soon, perhaps. And in case if you're wondering if I'm alive, yeah, healthy and kicking still! Hardcore kicking battling school and work.

So my husband's 29th Birthday is in a few month's time. Time to start recce for venue and get some plans rolling.

Lets pray that I'll pass my exams. I'm kinda on the roll here...

Thats pretty much my jibberish entry right there.

Have an awesome weekend peeps!

Skyscraper

2011-09-28T16:32:00.000+08:00

Somehow, relating to this right now.

Locks

2011-09-25T16:24:00.001+08:00

Collecting locks

Who run the world?

2011-09-14T15:38:00.000+08:00

" We are at our sexiest when we feel the most confident. We are at our least attractive when we are sure of our inadequacies and practically cave in on ourselves to conceal them…
We all handicap ourselves with insecurity, and it’s up to us to reset the self-worth scale and alter the message we sound out into the world… So how do we remind ourselves of our fabulousness without letting our self-doubt or the criticism of others drag us down?
Triggers. We wear heels. We get waxed. We do things that make us attractive to ourselves and, therefore, able to allow others to do the same.
And they work… Confidence is a state of mind, but sometimes we need to give ourselves permission to realize it. There is nothing wrong with embracing the tools that allow us to get there; heels, bikini waxes, whatever. As long as we’re aware of the fact that we are worth the same with or without these tools… "

Olivia Wilde

Of moving forward

2011-09-05T13:29:00.004+08:00

Ex should remain as exes, no matter what the circumstances may be.

Having your exes linger around your life is like taking a step back. Unless really your intention is to actually take a step backward instead of looking forward that is.

FORWARD.

There's obviously a reason why you broke up in the first place. Whatever the reason maybe then, perhaps you've forgotten or you've yet to get that "closure" 'cos you were dumped out of the blue therefore, take this as a reason.

"God took him/her away from your life because he's of no use to you now. He/She hurt you and you don't deserve it because you deserve the finer things in life. Only good people deserve that. Forgive them and thank them."

Take a moment to appreciate life as it is now.

Yes, it may seemed like the grass is greener on the other side, but you'll never know how it really is till you're really there.

Your ex may seemed successful, with kids and career and life. But only they know if they're happy(besides God that is).

Is it important to know if they(exes) are happy? Of course not.

Take life as it is. Love the life you have now. Live it. No matter how it is right now, one thing You do know is you're happier and satisfied just as it is.

about turning 2 - 5

2011-08-31T19:48:00.002+08:00

Before this gets super basi, I had the best time turning 25 and it felt like a million dollar doing so.

Thank you all so much.

My husband planned a suprised gathering over at our place the night after iftar, where we were supposed to go Geylang earlier.
And surprise surprise... Suriah was there!! Ultimate kicker!!

Loved it all

And when i thought it was over... another surprised was planned with my family and all my loved ones at a hotel, pool side restaurant for iftar.

Alhamdulilah I feel so blessed to have them all in my life.

Thank you all for making turning 25 sweeter.

Indeed it was the best!

picture purrrrfect third.

2011-08-03T15:08:00.005+08:00

I love our weekend 3rd wedding anni trip. No where far, nothing near any beaches. Still it was lovely, romantically planned and well thought through trip.

Back to where it all began, 6years ago.

That one night 6years ago, I looked up at the sky at that very city and knew my prayers were answered.

It was a meaningful trip just us against the world, amidst the traffic and noise, it was still pleasant.

A glutton trip if I may summarise it.

Our 5 star hotel was definitely awesome. With a bed overlooking the city, it was breathtaking at night.

It was picture perfect in my mind.

~
Yesterday, my husband surprised me at work. He came to the office to pass me a bouquet of flowers with 3 roses, symbolizing 3 years of marriage with a well-written card that got me all teary in front of my colleagues.

He got guts!

Unlike other years, this year was a personal delivery. Gutsy Gutsy.
~

Dear husband,

Thank you for loving me for the past 6 years, i know its not easy, you deserve to be on a pedestal for having the guts to love me the way you do. Whatever life brings us, insyallah, in God's will, we'll see it through. Like we promised each other, "you and me till Jannah. Amin."
Can you believe it, we reached 3!
I still want to wake up looking at you, make coffee for you, cook for you etc. I still want many more years with you. I still want you to be the father of my children. Insyallah.
Thank you for making me feel special. Thank you Allah swt. for sending you to me.
I love you and there's no other man I rather be with.
Remember the love letter I wrote you last year, it didnt have an ending because I have faith in you, in us that our marriage will be blessed hingga ke syurga.
One day, some day when we're in Jannah, you'll read the letter to me. right?

I love you,

Your wife.

Here's the song that I had wanted to sing during our lunch reception.

I mean every word of it.

triple

2011-08-02T12:48:00.002+08:00

We turn 3 today.

Happy 3rd wedding anniversary to us.

Happy fasting ya'll~

you reap what you sow

2011-07-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

it sucks to be you.

after so long, i guess i'm still the queen.

After 8 years.. Blink 182

2011-07-15T11:34:00.001+08:00

Finally after 8 long years.

Nothing as good as their old songs..still...finally!

Come down to Singapore already!

Tips for a Better Husband and Wife Relationship

2011-07-06T17:31:00.002+08:00

A repost. I shared this some time in 2008.

A reentry since, after 3 years. ( taken from Multiply)

Dearest Husband,

When you enter paradise later (insyallah), please remember me, 'cos you promised me Hingga Ke Syurga. Amin.

Tips for a Better Husband and Wife Relationship
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Although many Muslims may right now be in failing marriages and on a fast track to divorce and its terrible consequences, there are many ways to put their marriage back on the right track if the husband and wife are sincere in their desire to reconcile. The following principles can be used by Muslims whose marriages are already in trouble or by Muslims who would like to avoid trouble in their marriage.

Examples of NegativeRelationship of Husband & Wife

Many Muslim husbands and wives treat each other like adversaries rather than partners. The husband feels that he is the boss, and whatever he says goes. The wife feels that she must squeeze everything she can out of her husband. Some wives never show their husband that they are satisfied with anything he does or buys for them in order to trick him into doing and buying more. They make him feel like a failure if he does not give them the lifestyle that their friends and families enjoy. Some husbands speak very harshly to their wives, humiliate them, and even physically abuse them. Their wives have no voice or opinion in the family.

Marriage In The Eyes of Allah

It is very sad that this relationship which Allah (SWT) has established for the good has been made a source of contention, deception, trickery, tyranny, humiliation, and abuse. This is not the way marriage is supposed to be.Allah (SWT) described marriage very differently in the Holy Quran: '. . . He created for you mates from among yourselves, that ye may dwell in tranquillity with them, and He has put love and mercy between your (hearts) . . . " (Holy Quran 30:21, Yusuf Ali Translation).

Do not be a Tyrant

Regardless of whether or not Islam has made the husband the head of the household, Muslims are not supposed to be dictators and tyrants. We are taught to treat our wives well. The Prophet Muhammad (SAWS) was reported to have said: 'The most perfect Muslim in the matter of faith is one who has excellent behavior; and the best among you are those who behave best towards their wives" (From Mishkat al-Masabih, No. 0278(R) Transmitted by Tirmidhi).

Be Partners in the Decision Making Process.

Follow the principle of 'Shura," and make decisions as a family. There will be much more harmony in the family when decisions are not imposed and everyone feels that they had some part in making them.

Never be Emotionally

Never be emotionally, mentally, or physically abusive to your spouse. The Prophet (SAWS) never mistreated his wives. He is reported to have said: 'How could they beat their women in daytime as slaves and then sleep with them in the night?"

Be Careful of Your Words

Be very careful what you say when you are upset. Sometimes you will say things that you would never say when you were not angry. If you are angry, wait until you calm down before continuing the conversation.

Show Affection

Show affection for your mate. Be kind, gentle, and loving.

Be Your Spouse's Friend

Show interest in your mate's life. Too often, we live in the same house but know nothing about each other's lives. It would be great if the husband and wife could work together for the same cause or on the same project. They could perhaps establish a husband/wife prison ministry, take care of orphans in their home, or lead an Islamic weekend class.

Show Appreciation

Show appreciation for what your spouse does for the family. Never make your husband feel that he is not doing good enough for the family or that you are not satisfied with his work or his efforts, unless, of course, he is truly lazy and not even trying to provide for the family. The Prophet (SAWS) was reported to have said: 'On the Day of Judgment, God will not look upon the woman who has been ungrateful to her husband." (where is this hadith found) Show your wife that you appreciate her. If she takes care of the house and the children, don't take it for granted. It is hard work, and no one likes to feel unappreciated.

Work Together in the House

The Prophet (SAWS) is known to have helped his wives in the house. And if the Prophet (SAWS) was not above doing housework, modern Muslim husbands shouldn't feel that they are.

Communication is Important

Communication, Communication, Communication! This is the big word in counseling. And it should be. Husbands and wives need to talk to each other. It is better to deal with problems early and honestly than to let them pile up until an explosion occurs

Forget Past Problems

Don't bring up past problems once they have been solved.

Live Simply

Don't be jealous of those who seem to be living a more luxurious life than your family. The 'rizq" is from Allah (SWT). In order to develop the quality of contentment, look at those people who have less than you, not those who have more. Thank Allah (SWT) for the many blessings in your life.

Give Your Spouse Time Alone

If your mate doesn't want to be with you all the time, it doesn't mean he or she doesn't love you. People need to be alone for various reasons. Sometimes they want to read, to think about their problems, or just to relax. Don't make them feel that they are committing a sin.

Admit Your Mistakes

When you make a mistake, admit it. When your mate makes a mistake, excuse him or her easily. If possible, never go to sleep angry with each other.

Physical Relationship is Important

Be available to your mate sexually, and don't let your sexual relationship be characterized by selfishness. The Prophet (SAWS) was reported to have said: 'It is not appropriate that you fall upon your wives like a beast but you must send a message of love beforehand."

Have Meals Together

Try to eat together as a family when possible. Show the cook and the dishwasher, whether it is the husband or the wife, appreciation for his or her efforts. The Prophet (SAWS) did not complain about food that was put before him.

Be Mindful of Your discussion Topics

Never discuss with others things about your marriage that your spouse wouldn't like you to discuss, unless there is an Islamic reason to do so. Some husbands and wives, believe it or not, complain to others about their mate's physical appearance. This is a recipe for disaster. Information about your intimate relations should be kept between you and your spouse.Many of us treat our spouses in ways that we would never treat others. With others, we try to be polite, kind, and patient. With our spouses, we often do not show these courtesies. Of course, we are usually with our spouses at our worst times --- when we are tired and frustrated after a hard day. After a bad day at the office, husbands usually come home angry and on edge. The wife has probably also had a hard day with the children and the housework. Wives and husbands should discuss this potential time bomb so that if they are short-tempered with each other during these times, they will understand the reasons rather than automatically thinking that their spouse no longer loves them.

Good marriages require patience, kindness, humility, sacrifice, empathy, love, understanding, forgiveness, and hard work.

Following these principles should help any marriage to improve. The essence of them all can be summed up in one sentence: Always treat your spouse the way you would like to be treated. If you follow this rule, your marriage will have a much greater chance for success. If you discard this rule, failure is just around the corner.

180km/h

2011-06-28T20:45:00.005+08:00

Because we love fast cars.

180km/h to Cameron Highlands in 7hours.

Bliss!

Love

2011-06-21T20:54:00.002+08:00

Just one word. Love.

Happy Father's Day

2011-06-16T13:24:00.004+08:00

Happy Father's Day

The first time I saw him cry, was during my wedding.

Nevertheless, he's still my hero. Love you dad.

Whenever I see this photograph, the emotions just rush to me like it was just yesterday.

I will always be your little girl, Baba, may you be blessed with life's greatest and long fulfilling life ahead.

luckiest girl on earth.

2011-06-14T19:50:00.003+08:00

You know why I married my husband?

Because he treats me like a princess every time.

He and mom in law surprised me with a MacBook Air for my 25th Birthday.

Too much, I'd say. I must be the luckiest girl on earth.

Thank you so so much.

Now I can do my assignments everywhere.

And yes. the social experiment shall continue.

expérience sociale en français

2011-06-13T17:18:00.003+08:00

2011-05-24T19:40:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY HUSBAND

Its easy to get married. Its hard to stay married.
Its harder to make a blissful marriage last.
I pray to God everyday to make us both happy and bless our love till heavens door. Amin.

Tired balls

2011-05-20T14:36:00.001+08:00

I AM SUPER TIRED.

No kidding, juggling wifely duties, school and work.

TIRED!

My Orange Peel Fresh Story

2011-05-12T09:09:00.000+08:00

My Orange Peel Fresh Story dates back in 2005, during our dating days.
I fell sick one time, and my husband then boyfriend, came over to visit me while I was still sleeping and dropped off a carton of Peel Fresh Orange.
And since that day, I swore he won me over.

From that first orange peel fresh story, we moved on to 2008 when I walked down the aisle to Avenged Sevenfold - warmness of the soul. A grand entrance in white and black decor.

Please enjoy the lyrics.

How many of you can say, that you walked down the aisle to a Avenged, eh?

WE LOST OUR PASSPORTS

2011-05-10T16:55:00.002+08:00

Did you know, my husband and I lost our passports right before we check in our Bali flight?

Yes, we lost them literally right infront of the counter, what luck!

It was like magic.

Oh well, new passports then. I can go on about telling you how and what happen next, but damn I got bored telling people about it.

Its just wonderful to be Singaporeans, with just a piece of paper, you are able to enter another country without your passport.

So lucky right?

Rojak Entry 1: Returning to Phuket.

2011-05-05T09:20:00.007+08:00

Rojak Entry 1: Returning to Phuket.

Phuket.
Remember one of my non-stop weekend travels from February to March 2011.

Well, one of the places I went to was Phuket from 12-15 March 2011.This was our second trip there.

Our first visit to this Beautiful Island was sometime back in 2007 before we got married. Then we had to travel on a tight budget 'cause we were saving for our wedding, so we didnt try out the PhiPhi Island tour.
So this time around we returned for snokelling! And was really spending hard since this trip was a gift to Mom in law.
I was pleased to see many Halal eateries around this time around. Even seafoods are Halal.
Overall the trip was great, good food (as always) and good weather. Our hotels for both beaches were awesome.
Well, we stayed in Patong for 2 nights and moved to Karon for the rest of the night.
What with tsunami in Japan, to be honest we were afraid to set out to sea for PhiPhi Island snokelling tour on the 13 March, since all we watched on TV and read on the news are coverage on TSUNAMI. So, it was rather jittery even to be leaving Singapore for a beach getaway.
Nonetheless nothing crazy happen,(thank God) mother nature was on our side blessing good weather throughout our trip there.
The most annoying part whenever we visit Thailand is that locals will mistake me for a local- which is good because I get to bargain for good pricing on souveniers.
However, Phuket being known as somewhat a "sleazy island" is a horror 'cause some of these Europeans often mistake me as one of "the street girls". So they were rather VERY friendly. So I get annoying friendly OLD MEN smiling to me like they want something else. -__-"
What's not to love about Phuket. The massages are cheap-SG$7-$10 for thai massages, the TOM YUMs are ridiculously good, their steamed fish tastes heavenly, their beaches are pretty. Well locals are friendly but as always, the foreigners working the street stalls are very annoying, giving cut throat prices for cheap stuffs. So, we had to bargain non-stop.

Anyway here are the pictures from my Iphone.

Took air asia, was having offer, $100 ticket.

Most definitely recommended!

Henna tattoo - Love in Thai.

Phi Phi Island Tour - Maya Beach

Our room in Karon was uphill and it comes with aroma theraphy in the room, with swan-shaped towels.
The swimming pool was overlooking the sea and hills.
Gorgeous aint it?
This was the infinity pool back in Patong, so urban but relaxing.

I will return to blog about my KL trip and Bali trip in a while.

Happy Thursday!

2011-04-25T10:09:00.003+08:00

I STILL have yet to upload the pictures I took over the non-stop getaway 5weeks consecutively. I better hurry because I'm leaving Singapore this Friday over the labour day weekend for another getaway and this time, to BALI! -again! Why do I have a feeling that its going to snowball and I will end up uploading 6 albums at one go?

Bali. Oh Bali!

This week will be a long one I foresee. Because today, I'm officially a student of National University of Ireland, Dublin (University College Dublin) and I'm pursuing my Bachelor of Science (Part-time)

Orientation will be tonight and lets hope it will be a smooth journey. Insyallah.

For now, I'm just excited being a student again.

Career wise, I took a turn. Opting for a much slower pace and nearer to campus because my utmost priority now is getting my degree, so no matter the huge pay cut,lets just say, for a calmer life that balance student life, this is byfar the best option.

So no more weekend getaways after this week.

So come Friday, I hope to leave work by 6pm and from here, we'll be off to the airport for Bali and insyallah I will be back on Monday, and much tanner I suppose??

Have a great week everyone.

Life as such

2011-03-23T15:47:00.003+08:00

You see the longer I'm here the more grounded I've become.
The scary part is I'm no longer angry or upset.
I'm just ready and decided, and will stand by my decision no matter what.
If I'm worthless in your eyes, you don't have to tell me because I've figured that part out.

God made us women with a heart as deep as the ocean so that we can cry in our hearts without showing hurt in our eyes and we can scream as loud as we want but only our soul can hear.

There's a reason why you're there and I'm here and I thank Allah swt for giving me the strength and I pray that I will be stronger for all these.

Onward to happier stuff.

I come to realise I no longer like Roses anymore. I am fonder of orchids now and I'm liking purple more than green. How can it be?

Life as such

2011-03-22T17:22:00.001+08:00

Today, I saw my parents cried because of me.

I will always remember today. Because their tears just made me stronger.

Just plain truths.

2011-03-22T11:06:00.002+08:00

My heart aches everyday thinking about life as it is.
Mostly regrets and unhappiness.
I'm reaching 25 and I've yet to accomplish anything.

As of today, I am where I am (literally) 3 years ago.
I wished this was all a nightmare and I will one day wake up from it all.
I wished I was 16 again, being a daughter and studying and living a carefree life and life wasn't as tough as this. And there's no heartbreaks, and the only dilemma was school grades.

I don't know how long I can be strong, or I can fight this all. I'm in pain.
So to the world, that girl who usually blogs happy stuff is now telling you, that she's crumbling down yet again. This time, its harder and more taxing. I don't want to go to sleep because sleeping means I need to cry to sleep and I dont want to wake up knowing I'm nowhere near anywhere.

May God be with me in this because I can't fight this alone anymore.

Cause I heard you screaming my name

2011-03-10T17:08:00.001+08:00

I cannot help but to relate to this song right now.

On a brighter note, 1 day to Phuket!

I know I can't take one more step towards you

2011-03-09T09:16:00.001+08:00

I think you should listen to this and take note on the lyrics.

Mesmerizing, indeed

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

knock knock knocking on heaven's door.

2011-03-07T15:04:00.004+08:00

I was catching up on my past last weekend. I had a great shopping trip with my parents where I got to be a daughter and relieved of my wifely duties for just a weekend. There's something about KL night sky which more often than not, shake my life and twist its way into something worth wrecking for.
Its scary to think about life and how time never waits for anyone. But I love being pampered by my parents.
I'm just glad that the past caught up with me and how I hope to God it will stay this way or for the better.
Never in my wildest dream that I expect things to go this way.
Even for a second, I'm enjoying this ride.

Happy Birthday Shad!

2011-03-04T17:13:00.004+08:00

My younger brother turned 19 last week, 25th February 2011.

I thought I share a little about him since everyone knows I dote on him(too much). He knows his luck in getting material things from me will run out once I start my own family so more often than not, I let him get his way, get him stuffs he wants, because in my eyes, he's that pinkish, curly wurly baby boy my mom brought back from the hospital, when I was 6.

I was so happy I got a brother then because I'll be the only girl but I think my parents preferred boys to girls.

My brother, the sweetest and smartest one in the family, Shahid is his name.

Shahid (Arabic: شَهيد ‎ šahīd, plural: شُهَداء šuhadāʾ, also Anglicized as shaheed) is an Arabic word meaning "witness". It is a religious term in Islam, literally meaning "witness" but almost always^{[weasel words]} means a "martyr."^{[citation needed]} It is used as an honorific for Muslims who have laid down their life fulfilling a religious commandment, or have died fighting defending their country or protecting their family.

I think because he brings it upon his name that he often give in to our demands, always never protests. Oh, if you asked me, I think my elder brother loves bullying him and using his stuffs but still, Shad is not one who'll argue.

Cant wait for our KL trip together this weekend.

Happy Birthday dearest Shad, May all your wishes come true and may Allah bless you with happiness and blissful moments and protect you. Amin.

About the travelling wife.

2011-03-02T13:57:00.002+08:00

So, instead of being labeled as lady leisure, I hereby self-proclaim the title as Travel-ling Wife. *cue fanfare*

Here are the reasons why I deserve this title first quarter of the year.

1) on January 6, 2011 - I was in Melacca, Malaysia for a day.

2) on 13-16 January, 2011 - I was in Bali, Indonesia.

3) on 3-4 February, 2011 - I was in Batam, Indonesia.

4) on 26-27 February 2011, - I was in Batam, Indonesia.

5) on 4-6 March 2011, - I will be in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. - without my husband.

6) on 12-15 March 2011, - I will be in Phuket, Thailand.

7) on 2-3 April 2011, - I will be somewhere in the neighboring country for a road trip.

8) on 29 April - 1 May 2011, I will be in Bali, Indonesia.

Traveling almost every available weekend. *bliss*

Kampung Lorong Buangkok - The last standing Kampong in Singapore.

2011-02-15T11:36:00.005+08:00

Kampung Lorong Buangkok - The last standing Kampong in Singapore.

Because I love to share, I think everyone should visit the last standing kampung (village) in Singapore before urbanization swallow it up. It sure brought back some fond memories of my childhood when we were there last week.

Here are the pictures -

Pictures taken with : Canon 60D
Date taken: 13th February 2011
Location: Gerald Drive

Wiki - for more info.

More pictures - please visit HERE

Avril Lavigne

2011-01-31T11:59:00.004+08:00

I remembered liking Avril Lavigne back in 2002.

She like her.

Nice live performances.

I see!

2011-01-31T11:02:00.002+08:00

I love taking pictures. I do. Maybe its the shutterbug fever going around Singapore for a while now but honestly, I love photography. I love editing/enhancing pictures since I laid my hands on editing softwares back in poly - woah back in 2003.

I sold my Nikon D5000 just recently at a deal with full accessories and 2 lenses 18-55mm & 55-200mm to a friend. Because I've been wanting to upgrade myself.

Since my husband got a good deal for Canon 60D. I'm getting my hands on it. well it doesnt mean that I'm Ditching Nikon for Canon.

Hmm no biggie really. I was a Canon powershot user before jumping in Nikon DSLR. I still have yet to pick a favourite. But one thing common from all the 3 semi pro camera I've own/going to own is, it must come with a swivel screen for the that extra edge.

I've created a platform to share the pictures, me and my husb have taken using all the cameras we've ever own, even our camera phones.

Here's our humble platform ; I see! take a peek

Enjoy!

Ready Set Go!

2011-01-27T14:49:00.010+08:00

Its what? 2011 already.

Just kidding. I knew it was 2011 because;

1) We went on a roadtrip with MRFJC to Melacca for a day.

8th January 2011, driving up to Melacca and braved the night driving back to Singapore - first attempt at doing so. It was mad exhausting, we reached Singapore at 4am and woke up at 3pm on Sunday. But it was fun. MRFJC - Malay Regiment Fit Jazz Club is actually our car buddies. Our Honda Jazz needs companion too. *winks*

One word for this trip: Chendol with authentic Gula Melaka. *yums*

2)

I also know that its 2011 because - Our much anticipated Bali trip January 13 to January 16 2011- which we booked 6months ago.

Just for the record; I don't like booking in advance because things don't always go according to plan - like Murphy's Law.

Its like counting down the days and hoping everything will fall to places. The last time we booked a family trip - 6tickets to Perth at $180/pax through Jetstar back in 2009 - an aunt was diagnosed with cancer. Miraculously - she's a cancer survivor now! And if you're wondering what happened to the tickets - it got burnt up - we didn't go. -__-
Sadly, this time, a friend of ours got into a bad motorcycle accident and had to forgo this trip but it turn out pretty alright after the last minute changes of ticket holders.

This trip was one of those rare moments you get everyone onboard. It was more meaningful because its;
Also a celebration for my husband and Amin's birthday. Memorable.

Aaah Jimbaran. Spot us K-I-S-S-I-N-G at the back tsk.shameless

One word for this trip: Dreamland.

3)

And I know its a new year when its my husband's birthday!

See that SonyXR550E? That's my gift to him, shared with my mom in law and his uncle. Its a good investment, a good camcorder .. wait.. make it GREAT camcorder. - it also puts a hole in ones pocket =p
Original DC flexi cap from DC store in Bali, a gift from his brother, Wan.

I had mom in law prepare food for a surprise party at home when we came back from Bali on 16th January and made everyone stop by our place before heading home. They were such darlings, from the pretending to take different cabs and the last minute bowel problem.

My darling Bali Troop several shades darker.

4)

I know its 2011 because finally we set foot in Universal Studios Singapore - I prebooked the tickets through a buddy for $60 with $10 additional vouchers since October yaw!

We were all so excited. Believed me when I tell you we enjoyed this trip. Awesome rides - we tried everything!

Pardon the tummy *winks*

Look at him, so semangat with his camcorder. Awww~

All in all, I took a loooooooong leave in January. Wasnt at work from 13th to 21st January 2011, because after all these excitement, I had to pull out 2 wisdoms out and poof! 5days of MC ya'll.
Happening.

With having so much time to think at home. I need a new direction for 2011.

You just wait, wait and see.

2010 Dont Leave Me

2010-12-30T09:47:00.003+08:00

2010 was mostly filled with disappointments and regrets.

I left my job of 4 years in February and went to Turkey for holiday and came back as a housewife with no directions and settled to babysit a child and got all my maternal instinct kicked in and toyed my emotions and then it felt like a knife slicing through me. After that went haywired, whatever we planned before marriage pretty much was put behind and things really went kookoo. I underwent a surgery in June and I regret going through it. Now I have 3scars, visible scars on my bikini line. My career started to fly in this new job, only to understand that I need to put in a lot of social time into it. During this time I wasn't the wife I pictured I would be and started to put myself first. Its still dream of having a degree because I have to put everything behind yet again. Pretty much this year is a wreck. We are back where we were when we started, I'm still here and we have to face 2011 with the same questions all over again.

Quote of the year:

"Relationships fail not because they are destined to fail. They failed because one of the two, or both, made a choice to give up. And this applies to marriage too.
Screw pre-marriage course, because it is individual's choices to begin with; to make or break a marriage. "

with that being said Happy New Year!

Lucky, I'm in love with my bestfriend.

2010-12-17T11:06:00.003+08:00

I am getting the Maher Zain fever!

Right after my husband dedicated "For the rest of my life" on my Facebook wall, I can't stop playing that song over and over in my head.

Husbands, please do the same.

Enjoy the lyrics guys, its deep.

I'm gonna get his album soon *winks*

brazillian survivor

2010-12-14T10:22:00.005+08:00

My Brazillian Experience.

The first time was hell. I was very very shy showing my privates to a stranger (God bless her) whom have to rip off the hair beneath/ in between/ butt cleavage. Afterall it was the most sensitive part of the female's body, its instinct to feel withdrawn the first time.

That virgin Bwax I did was at Honeypot (Taka) and that wasn't a fantastic experience coupled with it being the first bwax, and it cost $68 for first timers and like all the beauty parlours they try to sell their products for the after care/packages.

Dayuum it was painful. I swear I would stay away from it then.

But because it did wonderssss for my nookie moments( Read: Explosive bedroom confident) I went in search for a new parlour with reasonable pricing this has to be important because I foresee I need it routinely for that ooze of sexy aura I crave for.

And walllah! this is my third visit with Pink Parlour and they are not paying me to blog this (mind you), and yes! I'm in love with Brazillian Waxing and addict even.

What I like is ; their outlets are equipped with showering cubicle in every room and you get to clean yourself off before waxing. That's a big plus point, for hygiene purposes. There's hairdryer/ hair straigtener, showering foam etc. if one decides to get all cleany before the ripping moment.

Nice!

Its cozily decorated in hot pink and zebra prints. Very sexy, cozy vibe. That's why they won me over.

And for my 4th visit. I brought along my girlfriend, a bride to be in 3days time.
As a gift to her from me her matron of honor, I ensured she had the best experience for her first time, because the first will always be memorable.

When we came, we were greeted by a bubbly well spoken beautician, Ivonne. She was so friendly and was wearing a brazillian waxing survivor shirt. (mad cute)

She made the bride-to-be feel so loved and comfortable.

She gave us a couple room, and because we agreed to share the room together, we became the MAYOR for sharing the room at ORCHARD CENTRAL for this service, we were the first ever to be sharing room doing Bwax - so she said.

It was a good move because I held the bride's hand and comforted her throughout the process and when it was over she said " lets do this again, same room!" - I'm turning her into a junkie. -__-

They gave her a pink doll cat to squeeze throughout the ripping. So thoughtful of them.

We were served green tea and ginger tea to top it all off.

It was indeed a very good memorable experience with Pink Parlour.

Kinky

2010-12-09T17:24:00.002+08:00

My momma said I have high tolerance level for pain.
And I agree.
After getting scarred during my teenage years and getting my heart smashed then, i think, pain is my best friend. It surprises me how I reacted that time when I underwent surgery and how much I love Brazilian waxing and how I don't flinch during scaling every dental appointment.

I must be crazy.

Because, now I feel like getting my tongue pierce.

Hmmm.

They love each other From

2010-11-25T14:54:00.003+08:00

This is Deep Yo!

My husband and I used to listen to this when we were in Mauritius. And it followed us till now. After two years, I decide to search for the meaning. I guess, Sheryfa Luna still is my favourite Frenchie and someday, I'm gonna have that hair style. Shortttt~

French:
Ils s aiment

Ils s`aiment comme avant
Avant les menaces et les grands tourments
Ils s`aiment tout hsitants
Dcouvrant l`amour et dcouvrant le temps
Y`a quelqu`un qui se moque
J`entends quelqu`un qui se moque
Se moque de moi, se moque de qui?

Ils s`aiment comme des enfants
Amour plein d`espoir impatient
Et malgr les regards
Remplis de dsespoir
Malgr les statistiques
Ils s`aiment comme des enfants

Enfants de la bombe
Des catastrophes
De la menace qui gronde
Enfants du cynisme
Arms jusqu`aux dents

Ils s`aiment comme des enfants
Comme avant le menaces et les grands tourments
Et si tout doit sauter,
S`crouler sous nos pieds
Laissons-les, laissons-les, laissons-les
Laissons-les s`aimer

Et si tout doit sauter
S`crouler sous nos pieds
Laissons-les, laissons-les
Laissons-les s`aimer

Enfants de la bombe
Des catastrophes
De la menace qui gronde
Enfants du cynisme
Arms jusqu`aux dents

Ils s`aiment comme avant
Avant les menaces et les grands tourments
Ils s`aiment comme avant
From: http://lyricstranslate.com

English:
They love each other

They love one another other like they did before
Before the threats and great torments
They love one another hesitatingly
Discovering love and discovering time
There's someone who is mocking
I hear someone who is mocking
Mocking me, mocking whom?

They love one another like children
Love full of impatient hope
And in spite of the looks
Full of despair
In spite of the statistics
They love one another like children

Children of the bomb
Of catastrophes
Of the threat that's brewing
Children of cynicism
Armed to the teeth

They love one another like children
Like before the threats and great torments
And if everything must be blown up
Collapse under our feet
Let them, let them, let them
Let them love one another

And if everything must be blown up
Collapse under our feet
Let them, let them, let them
Let them love one another

Children of the bomb
Of catastrophes
Of the threat that's brewing
Children of cynicism
Armed to the teeth

They love one another other like they did before
Before the threats and great torments
They love one another other like they did before
From: http://lyricstranslate.com

What is Love.

2010-11-24T13:36:00.006+08:00

Photo Credit

I've been dying to blog about this for days now. To pen my thoughts on this question:

What is Love?

You've probably heard of individuals confessing this 3 words & 8 letters "I LOVE YOU" to each other before or, you've seen on TV or,done it yourself. But what is Love?

Someone asked me via a social network this very question and my first reaction was err overwhelm, like a sudden surge of emotions waiting to answer but I don't know the right answer to it. I was asked to answer with my heart and my heart wanted to speak its deepest thoughts but it was always processed through my mind and I end up asking myself over and over again every moment when I let mind my astray; What is Love?

Wikipedia answered ; Love is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment

I conducted a quick social survey amongst my social network contacts and here they are;

contact 1 : a feeling/care/warmth that you willing to give it to someone else and never want to take it back

contact 2: love is an unspoken need

contact 3: love is a shared affection towards one another

contact 4: my husband, my mum, my family, my friends

contact 5: Love Overcomes Virtually Everything

My version;

A deep connection between 2 people that when the other isn't within reach, the desire to touch, hold, protect grows intense. I can see in my husband's eyes, I can feel from my mother's touch.
When I'm not around them for a period, I get restless and only God knows what will happen to me if HE takes them away from me. Undying love. It burns in my heart everytime I'm around them, deeper. When they smile, I smile, when they cry, I bleed. That intense feelings that we share beyond anything. The need to make them Happy.

Truth is there's no right answer to it. Its just something one has to go through to feel that intensity, connection that brings 2 individual as one. That process of falling in love, simply magical if you ask me. With that, I hope everyone start spreading Love instead of STDs. Hehe!

Spread the Love ~

I hope to those who've answered this, may it remind you how much you can love a person. Give that special someone a hug/kiss for that feeling they leave in your tummy, heart & soul.

*hugs*

Purrrrr!

2010-11-18T14:43:00.005+08:00

About the night we painted the town red.

I'm truly honoured to be made the matron of honour for a dear gf's wedding and sincerely thankful for this given opportunity. Nothing else matters but to please the bride because, you're only a bride once(Mrs Amin) and you want to feel special, and I'm prepared to make that journey a smooth/memorable one~ Insyallah.

First, not that its a practice in our culture, but the bride needs to feel loved amongst her friends (close friends that is) and what better way to have her bid her singlehood away with a gathering.

I so believed -Things do happen for a reason. And because I've pre-planned for a big bash, it turned out as a small, intimate affair on that day, which held something significant for the Bride to be. Which is of course a double win-win! ~ scored!

Let me tell you why;

Guest - Nisa.

She's been friends with the Bride for what 18years now and apparently their friendship dates back to zaman anak2 abu, so the bride was flattered that despite Nisa running a fever, she came for the bash and spared some laughter/smiles/loves and of course POLAROIDS!

Guest - Aisha.

She's one feisty party goer. She puts the capital P in PARTY and really spiced the bash a little with her wittiness and semangatness. It was fun having her around. It was the first time both Nisa & Aisha had a girl time with the bride together. Nice~

Guest - Fiqa.

I can only guessed that she wasnt having as much fun because one-she was missing her husband. And two-This newly wed really couldnt get her hands off her mobile to text/call her husband. Can't blame her, cos it was her first night out without the husband. Next time I'm hiding her phone away!

Mother of all Guest - Bride to Be

What can I say? She was a sport afterall she's the bride!

Me.

I was having fun meeting new people and making my gf all smiley. I was more excited to make the bride happy, not so much of the planned itinerary but much of accommodating to everyone's happy level.

My idea for the bash came about from a trip to Pink Parlour for Brazillian Waxing that one time. The sexy, zebra stripes and pink decor took the whole sexy feeling to another level. So, I designed/printed/cut/pasted/pulled/pushed and put my arty-crafty hands to work and check out what I did, which of course made the bash a little sexier and upz with knick-knacks for the guests and self-made cards for the special message/notes to the Bride.

And since the bride said before hand to have something not naughty but good clean fun, I'd planned something Good Clean Fun. But since the guests were pushing their luck and so, it was outta my hand but it was still on the safe side.

Guests were made to write a little note for the Bride.
(idea and design from yours truly)

Guests were given a party bag/door gift with a Thank You note from the Bride.

The party bag came with a lollipop with a note from the bride

and..

A sexy-pink/black thongs for their bedroom affair.
Well, the bride was in white.

Little notes for the oomph.

Thank you girls for rocking the night and sexing the Bride's night. It was a pleasure to meet each and everyone and most importantly - the bride has to go for her First Brazilian Appointment come December. A gift from yours truly as the matron of honour. (this idea was taken from Fiqa's wedding gift from Sabrina) - I shamelessly copied =p

Mr Amin would have to thank me for dragging his wife- to-be for ehemmmmm~

Ouchhhhh!

The Ice Cream Girls

2010-11-11T13:42:00.003+08:00

I love love love this book. I urge everyone to give it a read. Its very captivating!

Webbie!

As teenagers Poppy Carlisle and Serena Gorringe were the only witnesses to a tragic event. Amid heated public debate, the two seemingly glamorous teens were dubbed ‘The Ice Cream Girls’ by the press and were dealt with by the courts.

Years later, having led very different lives, Poppy is keen to set the record straight about what really happened, while Serena wants no one in her present to find out about her past. But some secrets will not stay buried – and if theirs is revealed, everything will become a living hell all over again . . .

Gripping, thought-provoking and heart-warming, The Ice Cream Girls will make you wonder if you can ever truly know the people you love.

2010-11-11T13:39:00.001+08:00

In this bright future you can’t forget your past. - Bob Marley

Yes, we have.

2010-11-10T10:38:00.002+08:00

There's a reason for everything.

Someday it will be our turn to be parents, and when that day comes, Insyallah, we'll be great at it-just like our parents.

For now, we are happy as it is. Alhamdulilah. Just you & me surrounded with people we love. When we're happy the world stop and smile, we paint rainbows around us when our heart smiles.

There's a reason why we are here and not there.

So I'm appreciative with what we already have.

Aint no sunshine

2010-11-02T13:41:00.002+08:00

In a split second the bubble got burst.

Aint no sunshine.

*boohoo*

You're not suppose to get whatever I just said because these days, I prefer living in my fantasy world than the reality.

I hope no one else will get hurt in the process.

----

Last night, I was invited to a product launch party. An event with open bar and delish finger foods. It was a good experience rubbing shoulders with people from the design industry and my god, there's alot of gays in this industry. You see the good looking ang moh with clean cut everything and there he goes asking another guy "do you want a drink darling"
At that moment I felt so awkward.
But again it was a cool event, kinda upscale for me but nice enough for a change of atmosphere.

All my scars are open

2010-10-25T10:41:00.002+08:00

A song I know has been around for sometime already.
The lyrics is so deep, cant help but to appreciate it.

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Don't tell me what to do.

2010-10-21T17:18:00.003+08:00

It gives me the jibbers to know that the exams are going to be on the day I'm supposed to be in Bali celebrating Mr Z's 28th. Urgh!

The cons of pre-planned holiday - darn you budget airlines!

This is so depressing.
You know the irritating indecisiveness feeling when you're given choices to choose from and you just know either one will lead you somewhere but at the same time its irritating to also know the sacrifices of each choices affects you in some way.

For example.

I've yet to pay for my course fee. Dead line is this Saturday (23rd October 2010) so i gotta decide on my own if I should take it now or in April 2011. (damn its 6months later-which means I'll graduate in 2013)

I chosed National University of Ireland because of the intense study scheme they have that really caters to my working schedule. Which is definitely a plus point and its tier 2 according to Ask Dr Money. And its rank 98th in the world for university.

Thats the reason why I'm so keen. Its not like I'm buying a degree from off the shelves. I need to work for it and perhaps have a convocation in Dublin,Ireland. (this part really motivates me)

So, if i take the course this year 24th October 2010, I'll officially graduate in September 2012.
If I take in April 2011, I'll officially graduate in March 2013.

Seriously, I'm sick of putting this off. You know when you want something really bad, it doesn't matter how hard you're gonna get to it. You want it means you really jolly arse of a gun try your best to get it.

That's just the thing. If i take now, I'll have to fore go the planned birthday trip to bali and let him enjoy with our close friends, its alright actually because someone else is willing to buy over my tix and hotel, only thing, he has to sleep with Mr Z. -_-"
And I'm not the only one from the foursome couple isnt going (if). So there's still hope there.
Technically, its not his birthday till 17th January. And the trip is on 13th to 16th January.
It gives me ample time to prep for his birthday and also it gives me awesome alone time to mugggg for exams on 15th January and pre-muggg for 22nd January.

But it still sucks because, its our first trip out together as the foursome.(not counting the roadtripsss la eh)

If I take the later one, 6months later to be precise, it will affect me. Because its like graduating a year later. I don't wish to drag any longer really. The timing isnt perfect but its right. I can feel it in my bones, telling me now now now.

All the papers are ready for submission.

Choices. Choices.

I know. I'll sleep on it. Rest and we'll see. If I'm at the campus by 3pm on Saturday means, hello mugging goodbye BALI in January!

Still in Love with Luna!

2010-10-21T16:10:00.001+08:00

He had the words

What has always bothered me
Is that at evening i could spoil him
But, since he talked to me
I stopped it.

He had the words
He made me an addict
I already saw
The alliance in his arms
He had the words
He made me an addict
I didn’t know
That i didn’t know him
He had the words

I hadn’t a life anymore
I only thought about him
Even if i ?
That he often lied.

He was losing himself in what he was telling
He was mistaken when he said that he loved me
And i put up with it
I forgave.

In his box i found toys
I ? that his ex continued to call him
And what did he hide?
I discovered him.

He had the words
He made me an addict
I already saw
The alliance in his arms
He had the words
He made me an addict
I didn’t know
That i didn’t know him
He had the words

I have followed him to his house
House pet and dog of company
House *****, you can immediately imagine the family life
Througout this time, i was wrong
I was wrong.

His woman surprised me, she has immediately come to confess me
That i haven’t been the first one with whom he amused himself
Througout this time, i was wrong
I was wrong.

What has always bothered me
Is that at evening i could spoil him
But, i doubted
But I stopped it.

He had the words
He made me an addict
I already saw
The alliance in his arms
He had the words
He made me an addict
I didn’t know
That i didn’t know him
He had the words

From: http://lyricstranslate.com

I am in love with Sheryfa Luna

2010-10-21T16:08:00.001+08:00

Translation:

From there & from over there

I'm from there & from over there
Between two lives
The one I'm back in outside
& The one I'm still looking for
I'm from there & from over there
Between two lives
The one of which I can see the decor
& The one that still escapes me

I need to know myself
I need to know where I come from
Holding back my words , my gestures , my rituals
That attach me to my people
Me , I feel lonely
I cling to my people's values
My parents whom I'm proud of
Who have made me half - blood & different

Take me to where my roots are
A part of myself can hardly live

I've grown up in my province
I know my district , my city by heart
You can read in my prints
All the things that trials teached me
But I miss a part of myself
That prevents me from building myself
It's a country across the sea
Going there would be like coming back

This feeling to be out of the ordinary
I'm not the only one who feels it
We are thousands , millions
That are torn between two people
In every part of the world

From: http://lyricstranslate.com

1, 2, 3... Fly!

2010-10-13T14:29:00.003+08:00

I'm up too early today for work.

Can't keep the zZzz monster away. Urgh!

My plan is to go home, zonked in bed as soon as I'm out of my work clothes. Cannot wait for 6pm to hurry.

Hurry Laaaaaaaaa!

There's gonna be wedding in December.

And yes, I am the appointed Matron of Honour.

Duties:

Ensure bride have an awesome wedding.
Throw an awesome bachelorette party.
Project XYZ for Bride & Groom.

Because I love black and white.

2010-10-12T12:19:00.006+08:00

Dear Jannah,

For someone who is getting engaged, you're pretty serious in most pictures. Lol!

=D

Congrats!

I am so Blessed.

2010-10-12T11:40:00.002+08:00

I love this picture.

I'm a daughter to the bestest set of parents. A sister to great brothers, a wife at 21 to the most loving husband, a manager at 24 in a good company. Syukur Alhamdulilah.

Lets hope I can manage the next one, a graduate at 26. Insyallah.

things do happen.

2010-10-12T10:37:00.004+08:00

Time for a "check it on me".

I've mentioned this before about my - to achieve before 25 years old goals.
Like an old friend said, I've lost "it". "It" refers to the aura of hotness. I don't know about you but I'm afraid of losing "it". I'm not saying I'm hot. Its just an appeal of interest. Well, I already know that I lost it when I changed my status to "married". My friend said that if I put a baby in that equation, what with me not going parties anymore, I'm doomed to be old and grumpy at 30.
Don't get me wrong, I still love kids and want to be a mummy, anytime when God wants me to. Wee~

I'm learning the art of letting go and not have too much expectations from any friendships/relationships.

I'm going to turn 25 soon. I've set some goals and I did a mental check on my checklist and oh boy, yikes! Nothing changed from the last I blogged.

Exactly what's been bugging me. What am I waiting for?

Actually, I can explain. Last year, when I wanted to study in Murdoch after turning 23, my career didn't turn out the way I wanted it to be, well thats life. So I had to put on hold, I can't be committing myself into study loans of $25k when I cant see a future in my then career. Thats risky. And then, I quit my job this year (it was coming anyway) and my husband started to venture on his own career path. So, Timing wasn't perfect.

Now the timing is kinda looking good for me to start studying again.
To date, my polytechnic diploma is already 4 years old. I need to get it going if I want to get my Bachelor degree else, I'll lose the credit exemption and have to go through the first year like the norm. That's not good and smart. Some universities do not recognize a local Diploma after 8years. So this is my priority right now. Need to get this going like Pronto! Don't laugh okay, my dream is to have a convocation abroad onsite campus, with my loved ones around. Insyallah.
We've applied for the recent BTO in woodlands. If we get that, since the response isn't as great. We would have to wait till 2014 for it to be up and ready. That leaves me with ample time to settle the study loans before settling into the home. (Read: assuming we get the BTO and I start my Degree now.)

Well, not in any hurry actually. Love our place now. Good things come to those who wait right?

But I'm all about letting go. If its not ours in the first place, then its alright.

So if you ask me. Its not wrong to dream. Dreams do come true, so they say. But with efforts of course.
Someone asked if I'm contented. Of course I am. Alhamdulilah. Had a great wedding (which I paid myself after saving for 2years - (greatest achievement, so please let me brag a little) two years ago.
Spent my dowry on a bike, my driving license, going to Mauritius, went Turkey for winter holiday. What more can a girl ask for? I've got and done things I've once only dreamed of with the man I love.

Nothing wrong to have ambitions even if you're married or a mother or anything. Alhamdulilah my husband is supportive with all my decisions. He never stops me from dreaming big, because he knows I'll support him twice as much.

Life is not always on the highway. I know. So when you're on it. Appreciate what you have because the road on the highway is always shorter.

On another note;

Let me reveal to you, our baby jazz.

Zebra & Pink

2010-10-11T16:12:00.003+08:00

I have a thing for planning an event. Like birthdays, hen parties. I love doing all the planning. Simple my plan is "to make that someone smile" or better "cry" (tears of joy of course).

Lets talk about my husband's birthday. He's one lucky chap, I tell you! It seems that after this year's Kampung Party success, I might need to UPZ for his 28th birthday.

You know its a success when people remember it and still talk about that night.

If you asked me - The key is planning ahead. I'm talking months ahead. For example for his 28th Birthday, believe it or not I've started planning and gone ahead with the booking and purchasing. So that I wont feel the pinch come the birthday(day). Ample time also means more time to look through minor details. Cannot stress this more often. Minor details are important, because minor details are the ones people do remember. Ironic right?

Of course after every effort and planning, there's always Murphy's Law. THINGS DO GO WRONG. So suck it up and control it again. Why stress? Ouh and you better pray that you guests are great kaki(s), else it will all fail!

Well, for his 28th, we are heading to Bali with friends (always wanted this). We have all booked for the flight to depart on the 13th to 16th Jan 2011. Hotels been reserved. He said before that he has always wanted to have a group vacation, so here it is. The thing is, his birthday is on the 17th. So that leaves me to plan for a weekday celebration(*yawnz*)

It will be on a Monday. Wish me luck on that! But I've gone ahead to purchase something, not a surprise though, I guess its enough surprises after 5years with me, right love?

----

On another event.

I'm planning an event for one of my GF's bachelorette party. Nothing naughty just good plain fun. No! I wont spill it here just as yet.

Hold your horses!

2010-10-07T09:52:00.000+08:00

Never would I imagine given a time to reflect on our friendship.
strange or how awkward it must have been for us that night.
glad its all behind us.

see you again

"Eeoowwpaanee" (aeroplane)

2010-08-26T09:59:00.003+08:00

Something about this particular book got me all mushy and hooked. I look forward to the long train rides to work just to continue reading it. I'm in need of new books because I foresee I'm staying here (work) for a looonnng time.

A question, where do you buy your books from? I get it from Popular eventhough, its not a good habit to get books first hand (read: going green) still, can't help having a crisp book on my lap and smelling each new pages as I turn it page by page. Besides, Popular has this frequent 20% off discount sale and it helps that you're a member.

I want a library . Nothing fancy and huge just a small stand cupboard for my collections.

Shooting stars for the birthday girl.

2010-08-25T21:25:00.006+08:00

Turning a year older. One word : Blessed.
Nothing much to say because whatever I had in mind, I've said to the people that matters most in my life.
Thank you for being in my life.

So random I don't know what to say

2010-08-19T09:56:00.002+08:00

Its the 9th Day into Ramadhan. I hope everyone's coping well with fasting.

I've learn alot in this holy month. Something deeper and meaningful than any other years. I just can't put it into words though, just serenity isnt enough of a word to describe this.

I'm glad that this year, my new angmo boss is so supportive that he's also trying to fast.

But the funniest was when he texted me "Confessions: I had beer at 7.14pm" that was one of the days that breaking fast was 7.16pm. Very witty right? I know he cant fully grasped the idea of fasting but you'd have to give it to him for trying.

This year, we'll do green and black suits. And this year prep came earlier since I cant tolerate last minute chaos. We painted our house and doors but we are not done as yet. Need to work on more painting this weekend, except that this weekend, I'll turn 24. I wonder.

I have no idea why this year the excitement simmered unlike any other years? Perhaps. I've not gotten around getting things done according to my "before 25 years goals"

And aside from that, I just made brutal self-declaration that we will not go for tours abroad till next year since we are saving for something bigger. Something I can't say else I'll jinx it.

But we are still open for short trips anywhere "$500 per pax" budget. So, Bali/Phuket/Krabi etc etc are most welcome for this year. Although, it will still be nice if Egypt was on our list again.

Lets wait and see if that simmered mood will hype again like any other years.

Happy Fasting!

Suck my soul

2010-08-06T15:00:00.002+08:00

This song is awesome!

I'm hoping that maybe my husband can jam with me to this song. *please*

Kitty Cat

2010-08-04T10:11:00.005+08:00

Hello August!

I love August. Because One- its our wedding anniversary month, Two- its my Birthday month(in err 17days and counting down), Three - Its Fasting month and Four - I'm fully recovered from my Surgery! Huuuurrraaayyy

Birthday! Birthday!

I don't know about you but I love birthdays. I'm a sucker for this.

And now its gonna be my turn this month so I'm ecstatic . So few nights ago, the husband asked if I wanted anything. I just shrugged.

Again, mother asked if I wanted anything, I shrugged too.

Well, I did have something that I wanted so badly but it cost 20k. How bout that? You think if I said it out loud, they'll faint? I bet so.

So I hinted, that this thing I want cost alot more. Perhaps could fund another wedding or trip for two around Europe.

Immediately he asked if I wanted LV handbag. -___-"

Aside from being generous at asking the ONE question I never thought he would EVER ask, like a freaking thousand dollar handbag for my birthday, he INSISTED we go Ion for it.

So my immediate reaction was *GASPS* VERY dramatic - with hands over my mouth and asked if he was serious, cos you can never know my husband, he's very witty and full of surprises. And again with a straight face he said YES!

But I ended up rolling on the floor laughing because it didnt matter if he actually bought one, he ACTUALLY asked me! That one golden question that is so rare to come by. Somewhat Like a proposal.

Oh come on! I'm not bragging, gloating or whatever similar to it. I meant in a shippishly kind of way that my husband the simple, steady bom pee- pee type of man asked if I wanted something extravagant- a piece of leather with LV marked on it. THATS OUT OF ORDINARY kay! So you get where I'm coming from, its like me asking my husband if he wants VW for his Birthday. Luxury.

Wanna try guessing what I answered?

Well, I declined his generous offer, to something that depreciates over time. That freaking amount of money can bring me back to Turkey or perhaps set foot in Greece, Paris or Ireland

You see he asked if I wanted a handbag. Not a wallet. LV kay, not a Coach.

*pulls hair*

But it was fun while it lasted cos he actually asked that question from out of the blue. My husband can never stop surprising me. He's always up to something. I'm glad I married this man.

I'm the type of girl who owns mostly $20 something of bags, shoes etc.

I like being simple.

So lets see what's instore for me this August. For what was worth, it was the bravest question he asked aside from my hand in marriage, that is.

Perhaps, it was because of my trip to Honeypot for Hollywood recently that's clouding his decisions.

LOL.

We'll never know.

Ladies, if you haven't jump into it yet, I suggest make an appointment with them(Honeypot), you'll never know if your man pops that question and perhaps you should answer a YES to LV.

Have a Happy MidWeek!

Our 48hours getaway!

2010-08-02T09:43:00.030+08:00

I prefer to call it a retreat than a getaway because it was merely 48hours or lesser. But definitely a memorable weekend. It was a packed, royally-treated one, I must add.

I'll try to not make this boring - I'll have you all blinded with Pictures hokay!

- people don't really take time to appreciate stand still moments *wink*

We didn't go far, because we can't afford to take leaves for now. Trust me, getting him away over the weekend is good enough. That's what you get, when you ride the entrepreneurs' wagon.

But it did remind us of Mauritius and Bali, not as fantastic but it suffice for now.

For a first timer to Bintan, I am impressed with the ferry service, not dodgy like the trips to Batam. For Bintan, you'll ride with angmos, koreans, japanese etc everyone with a common goal, running away from Singapore 9-5pm weekdays hecticness.

An hour ride from Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal.

Love

Another hour ride from ferry terminal to Resort.

This must mean something.

It feels like Bali

The room we got came with a balcony that overlooks the sea & pool.

This definitely remind us of Mauritius, kite surfing.

Taken from our balcony.

Upon arrival, there was a welcome drink, and the concierge guy was very nice to us. We were treated like royalties just like in Mauritius.

The sea was clear but I don't think we can swim, its like in NusaDua with alot of diesel cos the seasport activities is located nearby.

Our lunch was at this restaurant. Amazing how the waiter was so attentive that even when I grimaced cos there was a bug in my drink, he came and auto-changed the drink without me calling out to him. Cool right!

Aaaahh... only in Indonesia where you can get pure yummy juices.

Mango & Avocado.

My husband was on the roll with my Nikon, so I became the model.

Willingful model for the day!

So don't puke after this.. =)

Gazebo - Massage

Expensive or what!

Sand was so soft.

Our King & Queen Spa Package

2.5hours of pampering

-Jacuzzi

-Body Scrub

-Body Massage

-Body Mask

-Herbal Soak

THIS WAS AWESOME!!!

We caught the brightest moonlight that night as we star gazed.

Over candle light dinner.

4course meal.

It was all romantically set, had our very own server and it was blissful.

I teared.

We waited for sunrise at 5.45am.

Sun was out but the rain clouds hovering.

Awesome right

______

Eventhough it was a short retreat, it meant alot and it was romantically planned.

Loved every minute of it. I wrote a mushy letter and didn't end it and I teared when he read the letter over dinner.

I'll post a picture of the letter soon. Very mushy.

Today 02/08/2010 is our anniversary . We became one on 02/08/2008. So that makes us TWO this year.

And he caught me by surprise when he sent me;

I was blushing when I read the card. Thank you for loving me the way you do Husband.

HAPPY SECOND MY LOVE !

You'll always find me right there again.

2010-07-22T17:46:00.004+08:00

Another awesome song to share.

My cup of tea.

I bet the acoustics sounds great but I cant be bothered to go gooey on this song.

Here's my new found favourite tune;

True loves a gift

2010-07-22T17:18:00.002+08:00

We should appreciate nice songs.

And here's one. Listen and feel the lyrics of the song. Somehow it touched me, it has this old 'skool feel to it. Hopefully it gives you that warmth in this cold cold weather this wet Thursday.

I must admit, the showers are in tune with my heart now. Pouring and pouring mercilessly.

Here's the lyrics.

Mariah Carey Angels Cry Lyrics

Should´nt have walked away
I wouldve stayed if you said
We could have made everything ok

But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I could'nt have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Supernatural love conquers all
Remember we use to touch the sky

And lighting dont strike the same place twice
When you and I said goodbye I felt the angels cry
True loves a gift but we let it drift in a storm
Everynight I feel the angels cry

Bring it back and we gonna make it right
Bring it back and we gonna make it right
One of us is trying to survive, as the angels cry

Here I am on disgrace kind of love
Couldnt have guessed
It would just up
And disappear in a whirlwind

Here I am
Walking on this narrow road
Wobbling but wont let go
Waiting for a glimpse of the suns light

Bring it back is all that I want
Definitly we can just blow
Im willing to live and die for our love
Baby we can get back that shine

And lighting dont strike the same place twice

When you and I said goodbye I felt the angels cry
True loves a gift but we let it drift in a storm
Everynight i feel the angels cry

Bring it back and we gonna make it right
Bring it back and we gonna make it right
on the edge just tryin to survive as the angels cry

Baby I'm missing you
Dont allow love to lose
We got it right
here I'm with you
Baby I'm missing you

And lighting dont strike the same place twice
When you and i said goodbye I felt the angels cry
True loves a gift but we let it drift in a storm
Everynight I feel the angels cry

double trouble

2010-07-21T22:06:00.004+08:00

WE ARE TURNING TWO!
AND these pictures will be hanging on our wall.
it took me 2years to finally do something about it.

Life is like a floating buoy

2010-07-16T17:41:00.003+08:00

Something embarrassing happened (again) yesterday while on my way back from work.

Taking the public transport during peak hour is like survival of the fittest, its very taxing for preggers, oldies, children etc

So as usual, I now know a good place to stand so that one is free from the underarms sweat or scent, this is after weeks of taking the train, mind you! Well, you either scoot around people and squeeze near the rear exit or you stand super close to the person who's sitting. Either way you'll definitely get ample of oxygen supply (not necessarily fresh)

Back to the embarrassing ordeal. Yesterday, I felt bloated. Heck! I'm always bloated after a heavy meal. I concluded its just me after much procrastination. (you get the flow) I'm really skinny (much preferred to be called slim though) so with a bloated tummy, can you imagine? I'm like pregnant woman who's always carrying baby in her. And never gives birth!

Well, yesterday was wardrobe malfunction day. Because I was wearing a dress which is kinda lose at the tummy area but even if its time to bloat, i can never escape the stares.

What stare you may ask?

Have you ever doubt if the lady standing in front of you while you're seated is pregnant or maybe not? Well, I have and it never fails to amuse me when people stare and gesture to me to sit eventhough my reason to sit is to escape being squashed rather than I cant afford to carry my bloated tummy.

So being all emotional and stuff. I wonder if people will give up their seat if I'm really pregnant.

Since I'm already taking advantage of whatever left of humanity in this world.

I guess we'll have to wait to find out.

Happy weekend ya'll!

I'm gonna read my HON till I'm satisfied and re-read Twillight.

Ice Ice Baby

2010-07-08T09:19:00.002+08:00

Who would have thought that Spain & Netherlands for World Cup finals!

Certainly not me, because I so wanted Brazil or Germany. So I lost the pot. BooHoo!

Surprise! Surprise! My mom guessed it right from the start, even she who don't fancy football guessed it right -__-" wait! even PAUL the octopus guessed that Spaniards will beat Germans.

Put this aside. World cup is definitely an ice breaker, you can talk to a rugby fan and they too bring some World Cup opinions to the table. Am referring to my OZ boss who, obviously rooted for his country, well and NZ too but hmmm to even be qualifying for WC is a huge deal already.

I'm surrounded with expats here at the new building and thank God for World Cup that I managed to get pass awkward silences with random scores/opinions. And of course boys will be boys, give them a topic they like and they'll continue non-stop. =)

Well, the next time we bump into each other, I'll prolly talk about the weather, now that World Cup is coming to an end. Oh boy! and my man gets his rest, finally.

So for the finals, I'm going for Spain. Go Torres!

pak bing bing

2010-07-07T14:37:00.005+08:00

When Wan weds Fiqa.

I want you forever

2010-07-07T10:23:00.002+08:00

We are going here in 24days time (insyallah)

Beauty ain't it? I hope so too. Our package includes a candlelight dinner by the pool, spa package with body scrub,body mask, jacuzzi =)

I hope its gonna be awesome.

And we are gonna snorkel too. (I hope) Weeeeee~

Can't wait to hit TWO!

I wanna hold your hand

2010-07-06T17:31:00.001+08:00

Some random quote which is meaningful for all;

Quoting: "Here's the litmus test - if it will upset the other party when they find out, I think it's considered cheating. So if you have to hide it, you shouldn't do it."

Have a happy Tuesday!

pocketful of sunshine

2010-07-05T15:57:00.002+08:00

WE ARE GOING AWAY!

Yeehah Yippee Yeay!

Well eventhough this time we are going somewhere near and short(thanks to being a businessman and all) but at least its a getaway.

The thought of packing and going overseas is simply wonderful.

A short entry though. Will be back to update on a wedding, and our getaway details.

Randomly off the top of my head

2010-07-02T10:02:00.002+08:00

There's a shop near our neighbourhood, not a prime location though is vacant and while walking passed it the other time with the man, I said " someday, I'm gonna do what I like and have a shop".

I have no idea what I will be selling though, everyone's waiting for that big break. That one chance for you to do something you actually like.

Like the man himself. I've always wanted be to the boss, maybe someday. Dreaming is free right?

This career path I'm taking is well-hmm alright. I like it. But not loving it yet. I need something solid than this. Maybe because I'm still looking for better options that I don't quite feel settled here. Well, the boss is kind enough to wait for me eventhough I'm not a confirm staff while when I went for 2weeks hospitalization leave.

But to be honest, I need a bigger organisation to support me. I need study leaves etc.

Speaking of study leave, the man just got his letter of completion and the Diploma is ready for collection. I'm so proud of my man for doing this. Can't wait for his graduation ceremony.

I need to jump into the band wagon again and get my degree soon before I get sucked into something I can't get out.

"Hub, in case you're reading this, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU, LOVE. "

Can't wait for our movie date tonight, the man is sacrificing World Cup for this. Aint that sweet-o-lomantic! For the record, I did not force him, it was purely him.

Happy TGIF!

When a man loves a woman..

2010-06-28T16:45:00.003+08:00

This is what you will get on your cake for having a wedding during this World Cup period.

I'm definitely kidding. But wouldn't this be an awesome cake topper? You think?

I'm so excited for the coming weekend, in fact not the weekend only, from this Thursday onwards. Someone else will take our place as pengantin baru and we will be promoted to pengantin basi. (Its time anyway, sat on the throne for two years-almost) Not that we are complaining but we both are extremely happy for this two Lovebirds.

I don't know if I can contain my tears of joy when they wed this Saturday. Looking at Wan taking responsibility and all, after all he is like a brother to Zaid, and any "bros" of Zaid is a brother of mine.

Orang lain nak kahwin , aku yang excited semacam.

Letter to a dear friend

2010-06-26T23:28:00.013+08:00

A note to a blushing bride;

Dear Fiqa,

In a few days time you are going to be someone's wife. (READ: wife, wife, wife, wife) That's a huge deal here love. I hope and pray you're both mentally and emotionally ready for this big step. A step from being cared by your father to totally into Wan's responsibility. HUGE step but Insyallah a blissful one.
Wan is a great guy, a brother I must say. He's going to do great. He always have and always will. You're going to be in good hands. Well, adjusting to your new roles will be hard for the first few days,months and for some even years but it will be smooth once you get the hang of it. Enjoy every moment of it. From the day of akad nikah to the wedding day and everyday after that.
To be honest, I'm still learning everyday about love,marriage and building it solid(if that's even possible) I've got no secrets or tips to share yet but we are both on the same page, to stay in love to our wonderful man.
I am truly happy that this day is coming. The day both of you celebrate your love. Take time to adjust and be happy. And appreciate what's there because only you can feel the wonders of it all. Breathe. Laugh. Smile. Do everything at once if you must. Your nerve is going to get the better of you if you let it. Just be happy and enjoy the ride. This feeling will only happen once.
Tear if you must, if that makes you happy. DO IT!
I'll be here for you. *hug*Congratulations *muaacks*

p.s. you're going to be gorgeous!

Countdown to 2008 ( Wan ditched us to meet you-and we caught him)

Our first Karaoke session.

First picture of you both in our collection. (sorry not fantastic k)

Your second officially gathering.

Our clubbing night.

Wan's birthday surprise.

Look how far you've come!

Wishing you a blissful marriage and eternity of happiness. Amin.

cookies and cream

2010-06-25T13:46:00.000+08:00

Stuff I like. Have a happy Friday!

shall we go on a roadtrip

2010-06-24T15:53:00.002+08:00

Friendship. How far can it go?

I was just watching a video of us (the tricky bunch) playing guitar hero and goofying around. And that was last year. This year, aside from throwing a party for husby, where everyone was there, we dont get to see everyone else anymore. I mean everyone just playing lives on their terms.
Thats how fast things can change.

Time dont stop for anyone. And thats sad cause the wonderful things in life only happens in a second and thats it. Its either yours or not.

For what is worth. I appreciated our friendship.

straight from the heart

2010-06-23T19:46:00.002+08:00

I know, i've not been religiously updating this blog since forever.
Sometimes, not blogging and telling you all about what I've been through is simpler than pen-ing it down.
But this will be better off if I say it out loud.

I underwent a surgery recently which cost me 16days of hospitalization leave. Its been bothering me since because I just started my new job and believe me I like this job, gives a good vibe and a big step in my career. Only thing, I hit them with this news too early in my probation. Oh Boy! Things will never be the same again! Barely into a month settling into the job I got shipped off for this surgery. And I know my boss needs me this crucial time.
I wonder if I have a job to go back to next week.

I mean I can go to work now and risk my health to be in my boss's good books but i guess, that's just the medications talking to you all. I need rest. I need to be strong for me. If I fall off the stairs, got hit by the car, none of the bosses will give a damn. I mean truth here, no bullshit.

I underwent a surgery for goodness sake, why is the boss only texting me if I'm ok? Don't mean to be petty but don't I deserve a fruit basket or a visit or a proper phone call? And the week after - to ask if I'm coming to work? I mean seriously. I give a frigging 110% when it comes to work (so someone nice please hire me)

I dont mean to sound emotional here but I think its the medicines talking to you.

Of giving Baby away

2010-05-31T09:41:00.003+08:00

I am looking for pet lovers who wanna adopt our white persian cat.

Her name's BABY and she's sterilized.

I am serious in giving away the kitty due to some health issue so, I hope the new owner is serious in taking care of this kitty.

She's been a gem in our family for 7years now. I know its old for a cat to be given away but I rather know that the cat is being loved by someone else than giving SPCA which they will (I'm pretty sure) put her to sleep.

Appreciate it!

Change is Good.

2010-05-24T11:20:00.003+08:00

Change is Good.

Well, besides the change in my career, We changed our furniture arrangement in our room. He gets to do the heavy lifting while I get to do the dusting. Boy! our room was filthy over 2 years now.

Besides that, we're gonna paint the walls. The fungus growth on the walls are disgusting and its inevitable and made everly so obvious with our current colour - saucy maroon.

If the anti-bacterial paint wasn't out of stock last Saturday, we might be a slogging over the weekend painting and adjusting to the new feng shui, well Thank God for that, else we're gonna be so beaten today.

The change was inspired when I had a couple of days staring into air when I got mysteriously ill with high fever and was bed ridden. So, I had time working my master plan for this revamp in my head. Perhaps its time for a new look and some boost to positivity with the now - abundance of light in our faces every morning.

Career. I love my new job. Saying it with a capital L - L O V E. I like my new boss and love the positive new environment going around here. It just ooze positiveness and encouragement which boost my morale to work for this company. Besides that, I'm offered a managerial post. And this company is global so, its a big step for my career at 23 now. Just that I need to adapt on the Aussie and New Zealander slang and keep up with their jokes. hur!

E.g Doodle in our common knowledge is scribbling on a piece of paper, but in Aust it means male sex organ. So dear friends, try to avoid the use of the word Doodle.

That's it for now.

Pictures will be up soon.

Follow me on Twitter. Honeysan for more updates.

I'm a tad too lazy to update my blog. But I'll try.

walk with me

2010-03-31T19:53:00.000+08:00

hyp·o·crite

2010-03-24T11:35:00.002+08:00

Define: Hypocrite

hyp·o·crite

–noun
1.
a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.
2.
a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements belie his or her public statements.

Okay. So you get the definition. So now don't be in denial and say you're not one.
To a certain percentage, I believe everyone of us is a hypocrite.

Look around you. Everyone is a hypocrite.

Just some random thoughts.

onward to greener pastures

2010-03-03T14:51:00.003+08:00

I've never thought I had the courage to leave it all behind after 3years 8months. Well, its been an emotional,bumpy, joyous ride and of course it has moulded me into something aside from having it on my resume.

Its an emotional stepping stone because I reflected on what I'd achieved here and what I couldn't and its been great since it got me through my singlehood to my wedding day to the beginning of my marriage.

The truth is, I'm happy with the new found courage that I got and to leave something you're comfortable with is brave. So I have no regrets. I've served the company to the best of my knowledge with littler guidance and that's a relief.

2010 is a new beginning. Its time to search for greener pastures.

Who knows motherhood will knock on my door sooner than everyone might think.

Have a wonderful Midweek!

Back

2010-02-24T11:22:00.004+08:00

BACK!

From Turkiye! And I enjoyed my 10days away from Singapore. Everything there is so magnificient and its ooze peace,serenity. Turkey is in Europe! And we are all lucky to witness the magical beauty of everything there, the roman,greeks ruins etc I love Turkey because of the beautiful people there. They appreciate our skin colour and adore our beauty. Whats not to love when a random man, women come up to you and compliment your beauty and think you're one of the Bollywood stars.(hurhur) sweet talker? whatever but its pleasing since I don't get this here except of course by my husband. =D

still, loved loved loved Turkey!

This will be a short entry because I'm in the midst of uploading the pictures, I took 3000 pictures and I'm crossing my fingers that everyone will love it. I know its crazy 3000?!

Meanwhile I'm serving my last few days at work because I tendered my resignation just before I went on my trip and I'm not regretting my decision. Eventhough the only vacancy left is being a housewife for now, still I'm happier already knowing I don't have to suffer any longer, just 10days left till I smell freedom and greener pastures.

Still job less though, might not know for how long will the status change but I'm embracing it with full of faith and new found happiness. New year new me right?

Meanwhile, I urge everyone to live life as if you'll die today, embrace life with no regrets. Because I just did and I'm happy, happier than I could every be on a normal working day. =)

For the first time, I played in the snow!

ps: I survived 12hours flight to Turkey! And of course back from Turkey which amounts to 24hours!!! urgh! jet lag much!

Currently ringing in my head

2010-02-11T09:47:00.002+08:00

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great!
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

not so wise

2010-02-10T10:35:00.004+08:00

Let me tell you How evil Facebook is.. in my opinion.

Notice the shout out at the top of Facebook home page? It states "what's on your mind?"

Wise man will not answer that question and leave Facebook to wonder for the longest time.
Not so wise someone will answer Facebook with a lighter note like "I feel like chicken tonight, KFC anyone" (with no emotions)
Idiot will answer Facebook with emotional status that may/may not degrade oneself/other party. ( I shall not give example but you get my flow)

I am definitely under Not so wise category because I love the attention from the many comments people will give after I post it up. Attention seeker to a certain extent is healthy. However, I loathe people who post on shout outs emotional status which could ruin their life.

Haven't anyone read about internet privacy?

Give you a scenario.

Boy & Girl (dating for years) having some issues & petty squabbles decides to fall under IDIOT category and answer Facebook with the most emotional status telling the world they are on the rocks.
Lets say if their exes reads only to find that they have a chance to rescue the broken hearted ex and slowly they will pry on the problem and be the shoulder to cry on.
And whatever happens next everyone should know.

Instead of having a quiet petty squabble among the Boy & Girl, now it changes to a third party relationship which is much serious than the original problem. So tell me what happens next?
Salvation is even harder. Well, Boy & Girl just made their enemy dance at their downfall.

Confusing much?

I think everyone need to be wise on the world wide web because not only does it connects you with everyone in the social networking sites, it also disconnects you with the real life to a certain extend.

Think before you answer "What's on your mind now?"

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On a lighter note saw this quote by Bob Marley from a friend's blog and sharing with all of you.

He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect.
But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can.
He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break.
Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze.
Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad,
and miss him when he’s not there.
Love hard when there is love to be had.
Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.

— Bob Marley

ten days!

2010-02-03T10:31:00.003+08:00

10 days to a winter holiday!

Current weather in Turkey;

ISTANBUL
2010.02.03 0150 UTC

Wind from the NW (310 degrees) at 22 MPH (19 KT)
Visibility 1 mile(s)
Sky conditions mostly cloudy
Weather Snow showers
Temperature 30 F (-1 C)
Windchill 17 F (-8 C)
Dew Point 30 F (-1 C)
Relative Humidity 100%
Pressure (altimeter) 29.94 in. Hg (1014 hPa)

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Snow snow snow... wait did they mention snow? Yes they did!
*gasps*
I am not sure if I can survive the weather though -__-"
Even if I freezed like an Alaskan fish, I can finally say I broke my virgin stepping onto winter wonderland
(that is if I survive)

So I was thinking about my camera and its survival through the weather. I stumbled across alot of forums mentioning the fogging situation and the batt-life. I am concern. First I will be lugging around the huge Crumpler with lenses & cameo not cool!
Second I'm thinking about the advise on bringing lots of batteries because they dont last after 30shots
-___-" (is it even true?)
Third I am thinking how the hell am I going to prevent it from fogging through the weather changes.
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So things to buy;
1)Heat Padssss
2)Another Extra Batt

case by case

2010-01-29T13:44:00.002+08:00

Someone got promoted. And I have just one thing to say;

You know, in this dog eat dog world, when someone gets promoted especially YOUR promotion, best is to not bark, but pee at their table!

I should just congratulate that lucky guy but tell me how am I supposed to do it with a straight face when I never got a chance to feel what he felt. I took that department for 3years and got it running smoothly into 3years of transitions and now when they pull me out into another department on the pretext of my in lieu "promotion" . Someone else's got the honour of being promoted.

If i was being promoted, I wouldnt know. But all I know after putting 3years of hardwork and sweat in that department, I wasn't recognised like how he was. I wonder is it because of my qualifications? But how can he be superior than mine interms of qualifications when he cant even construct a proper grammar free sentence? Tell me. If I wasnt good why am I unknowningly being promoted?

My best-friends

2010-01-25T21:55:00.004+08:00

For those who asked, here are my bestfriends;

First set is my eternity ring given during my one year anniversary in Bali last year. Opted for semi eternity because I wanna wear it daily so am afraid to hit the rocks while doing daily chores.0.7carat

Second set is my engagement ring which is 0.8carat princess cut and serves as an "heirloom"
Got it on 3rd September 2006 and have since sparkled my life.

Third set is my wedding ring. Its a twisted band of white gold & yellow gold. Not meant to be worn on the same finger as the other two because of its complicated design. 0.5carat

They bling-ed my life!

theme party

2010-01-25T16:44:00.002+08:00

I am envious/ happy whenever I see twins. Yes I'm obsess with twins, triplets etc etc those that come in bundles! I dont actually know the reason behind this but when I found out that my husband's family line has TWINS, I am super estatic. Really. So the probability of us having twins is higher than zero. ^_^ hurhur.

With that said. I'm now planning for brother's 18th Birthday party in February. Some have expressed their interest for another theme-party but they don't really know which to go for this time. It has to be at a chalet since we love BBQ stuff. So.. a month to the party then.

=)

From My IPhone!

2010-01-25T09:11:00.003+08:00

Here are two pictures captured using my Iphone. I personally like them alot. It speaks to me.

Golden sunset over at Jurong for buffet style Sakura Craves with my colleagues

Here's a picture that captures the Ray of Light from above, on the way to town.

Hubby's 27th!

2010-01-22T10:15:00.008+08:00

I remembered telling my friends about my plans for Hub's 27th Birthday 4months ago because I was that excited for it. I scribbled on pieces of paper ideas from people around me and finally got everything in motion last weekend when I threw the party for his 27th. Its afterall the people around him that matters to him.

So here it goes.

Theme: Unglam-Kampung Days
Venue: D'Kranji farm Resort
Date: 16th Jan-17th Jan 2010

My theme was inspired by these 3 photos;

1) Classic P-Ramlee Movie Days

2) Kampungs that many are familiar with (then)

3) The rustic settings of D'Kranji Farm Resort

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This was where the party was booked it four months ago at an early bird price
D'Kranji Farm Resort
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Photos Galore from the party, I post-edited for some "old-skool" mood

Our backyard, Villa (01-15)

Wanted to get a pure pandan-cake for him but i think he deserve a better one, so got from prima-deli a ROCKSTAR cake that said "3years to 30!"

Everyone dressed to the theme and it was fun to see everyone so into the whole idea.

Which is your favourite character?

All guests from the young to the old dressed-up, put effort to grace the party in their kampung outfit.
Which is your favourite Minah Kampung?

How can we not have these as dessert? Made with love.

We played charades & "win lose or draw"- old skool movies & songs

The men vs the women and guess which gender won?

W O M E N

*hail to the minah kampung!*

We even separated ourselves and sat on mats. Can you feel the kampung-ism?

The minah-minah kampung played five stones.

The mat-mat kampung played Chapteh.

Prizes for the best dressed Mat & Minah were in the typical envelopes.
In case you asked, it was $20 NTUC vouchers for their effort and enthusiasm.

Another look of the villa the very next day.

Thank you everyone for gracing the event eventhough the venue was very out of place and you guys were clad hideously, heh! I cant thank enough - our dear friend Wan for leading the birthday boy to the venue for his surprise, I'm sure he was difficult. *wink* But I guessed it was worth it. Fiqa for helping me with alot of things and details of the party. The food was sumptuous by Mamamontel and also by my mom and his aunt. Hell of fun!

Once again Happy 27th Hubby!

Click here for more photos of the Kampung Party!

Back to basics

2010-01-18T09:39:00.002+08:00

My husband ushered in his 27th last weekend.

I'd pre-booked a villa at the newly opened D'Kranji Farm Resort 3months in advance which was reasonably priced then. Since I knew he loves companionship and treasures friendship, I decided to throw a party for his 27th. It was a close-knit affair. I decided on a theme party and got the wildest idea of going all-kampung theme from looking at villa pictures 2months before the party. The villa gives a very rustic feel and it truly was.

It was back to basics.
The food, the drink, the dessert, the games, the mats, the guest-book,the guests were all kampung-fied. Going kampung got every one excited including the Makciks & Pakciks, they were all clad in batiks, sarongs etc.

I'm sure everyones' excited for the pictures. I promised I will load them by tomorrow.

I am sure it was an awesome party.

sex-cited!

2010-01-15T10:26:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE DAY!

BACK TO BASICS!

D-Cups

2010-01-12T16:34:00.003+08:00

Conversation between my friend(A) and me;

Me: So, what are your plans this weekend?

A: What? You don't know? The huuhaar?

Me: What? What?

A: Wait. *smirk* *Looks at me* I think.. you shouldnt know 'bout it

Me: Effing Dggg...Say la! Tired siah pester! *rolls eyes*

A: D Cup Partay!

Me: WTF... *pissed*

A: Its a party celebrating big badangdangs...if a girl with D-cup flaunts her asset at the party, she gets a bottle free(alcohol)

Me: Chet! so you're saying I can only get 2 cups? Waste time.

But I'm going to be so very very busy over the weekend because Hub's turning 27th!
If its an ice-cream buffet, would definitely jump on the wagon but its alcohol. -__-"
So if you're not invited to any parties this weekend, and you think life sucks cos you're excluded in the social arena, consider this your lucky day, cos you're reading my blog and that's how you know bout this partay! Men bring the girls with busty badangdangs. Girls, wear a pushup bra!

party in the usa

2010-01-11T15:50:00.001+08:00

The husband is turning 27 this weekend!

Yippee!

Sorry 'll update soon. I'm adjusting to my busy 2010 schedule and juggling hub's birthday too..

Heartless

2010-01-05T09:35:00.004+08:00

I just finished reading SOLD by TESS STEVENS and God knows how much it's affecting me.
I have a weak spot when it comes to children that is one of the reason why I have so much patience to teach them and guide them for three and a half years.
What I can't understand is why some parents can't bring about to love their children when in the first place they intend to have them. (even with a different partner)

This is not a book discussion. I don't intend in sharing details about the book. Eventhough I strongly encourage you to read her story. Its a true life account of her life and it opened my eyes to lesbianism.

How can a mom not care of the child she gave birth to? How can a mom not care to see their child succeed? How can a mom pushed the responsibility of mothering in the first place?

If only there's not much complication in adopting these kids, I would have done it in the first place. Its not an excuse not to love them but why would I take the children away from the mother when she's healthily living under their Father's place? Its very upsetting to me to learn that such mothers are alive and not realising that their ignorance are moulding their children and I hope to God they will not be affected by their irresponsible mother and be better than anyone of us.

I wished I could. Really, I would if I have a way at it.

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5days into the new decade, and its twelve days to the husband's birthday!

My goal is to make him cry happy tears( yes I know you're reading this love!)

Happy Tuesday People!

Taufik Batisah

2010-01-01T03:50:00.009+08:00

I spent my first 20minutes of 2010 with Taufik Batisah and got 477 shots of him.

Thank God for the 55-200mm lens with superb flash & the lucky chair I stumbled upon while going through the crowd.
No editing done, enjoy my humble pics of the first Singapore Idol.

And I'm not kidding when I said I took 477pictures of him 0_o

Happy New Year!

I will post up the rest in my FB account soon.

2009

2009-12-31T09:14:00.004+08:00

My take on 2009.

Today is the last day of 2009 and at the strike of midnight we're all going to welcome 2010.
Be it by the Marina Bay or infront of the Telly, one thing we all would like to have for 2010; better blessings and total recovery from the 2009 credit crunch.

2009, had its fair share of the goods and the not so good memories.
As most of ya'll know, I lost a grandpa (the only one I knew) and it shooked us all pretty bad with his passing. Family comes first, no matter what. And pretty much life is as fragile as God wants it to be. Sickness is just a mere torture of his blessings on Earth. 2009 made me realised to love myself more and to put myself forward when it comes to health.

2009 welcomed in a new addition to our family and perhaps 2010 we'll be all blessed with another addition. Somewhat, deep in my soul I longed for.

Thank God, the nasty 2009 credit crunch didnt hit us bad. But I'm sure some felt the pinch and lets all hope our Big brothers are more careful with rolling out the cash so we all can live happily ever after. I'm still searching for greener pastures for my career if only I have enough courage to leave this one(that I'm hoping 2010 will bring better luck for my career)

There's only one thing I want for 2010 and lets all keep it a secret for now. I hope that if all goes well I'll be able to start my degree in July 2010 under a diff Uni. It beats me so bad that I have to leave Murdoch but I'm embracing life with open arms and if that means being a wife comes first than it jolly well be it.

With that I leave you with the best photo I captured in 2009 that speaks to me more than the rest.

Loneliness.

And if you ask me on my take for 2010 and resolution.

Here's mine;

Work like you don't need the money,

love like your heart has never been broken

and dance like no one is watching

I'm going to try to be myself more even if it means many broken friendships.

Happy New Year Everyone!

Another year to make it right this time!

mourning

2009-12-29T15:23:00.003+08:00

the drummer of my favourite band passed on on the 28th December 2009.

at the age of 28.

may you rest in peace. I'll post up some of the pics I captured while he and the rest were in Singapore when I get back home.

it feels like MJ died all over again.

and i really thought it was a joke or something.

Rest in peace my man.

Avenged Sevenfold

judged by a piece of paper

2009-12-28T14:18:00.002+08:00

Living, studying and working in Singapore is through a ticket of a piece of paper.
Often people from the intellect group will question to compare their society stand of your education level. What do I know? Afterall, I came from a neighbourhood primary school and a secondary school which has cameras all over our social-gathering places(canteen etc) to monitor our movement. Hah! That means even our discipline master/mistress were that afraid of the notorious bunch.
My results have always been average and that landed me into a Polytechnic instead of JC which I'm thankful for because when I hit 16 I was already think- God! I'm not going to be in uniform for the next 3years.
Vanity took over when I got into poly and had spent more time dolling myself up than listening to any lecturers, swear! Don't even start with me on attenting lectures, I'm never there when I hit the second year. But because I wanted to be accepted, I skipped school for parties then it was cool. But still I got through my 3years of poly life with average GPA. I never regret it.

Now, I think I'm selfish to influence my younger brother to enter Poly than JC when he actually scored a single digit for his O's. That was a straight ticket to university via JC route if he's able to put in the same effort or more than in Secondary school. But I thought if he went into poly he'll enjoy it as much as I did. So the vanity factor decided for him( he'll not wear any uniforms) but the second question was, which course in Poly. I didnt want him to get into any specialised diploma because the market is saturated as it is what more with foreign talents invading and since I'm in the construction industry now from a business diploma(not related!), I saw the market for it and the big money one can earn. So, he took on the newest course in Singapore Poly- Engineering with Business.
Only to find out now that he hated business and he's beginning to hate his course too!. And regretting that he should have followed his instincts to go into JC in the first place.
What I could only do is to push him as much and encourage him to go through Poly and into NUS or NTU. 0_o
I wished my elder brother was that hard on me then instead of encouraging to party with him *buergh*

I learn that sometimes I can't always control situations and cannot influence a decision and I've to let it go.